Grandma

Grandma was a lady with few words. Perhaps it was innate, or that she grew up as an immigrant and was shy of pronouncing differently, she just didn’t say much. However, grandma had a way with people and spoke with things. She would listen attentively with her ears and eyes. And just when you think you have forgotten your packed lunch or misplaced your favorite watch, she would ready in her hands precisely what you need or point you to what you seek.

It has been 5 years since grandma left us, and I miss her horribly. Who wouldn’t?

Yet, each day I tell myself it was precious and amazing. You see, I had 20 years with grandma, and I am grateful for that.

Our family never truly leaves too. Yes, grandma lives within me, and I can feel it! For whenever I am lost or uncertain, I get answers almost too quickly and through no effort of my own. Grandma continues to speak to me in her own special way.

And so, I smile, I smile when I think of grandma!



Magical Mondays is a weekly short post on something heartwarming, something sweet, and something magical.





Your First NFT

Your First NFT on Opensea


The idea came to me while playing with Coco. No kidding. I was also influenced by Garyvee (No need to hyperlink this guy!) I was listening to his latest podcast episode, and it really got me thinking. It was about his latest book, “12 and a Half,” and he talked about how you can do good and be nice and still grow a great business. I definitely didn’t belong to this camp, and growing up, I had a lot of bad references that you can’t have it all. You got to choose either family or money, career or family… stuff like that. Even if you try to balance smartly, something still has to give. E.g., health. But I do find myself more optimistic after hearing his latest podcast. And I agree, “good” and “bad” people can have financial success, but it’s the formal that have happy lives.

I’m digressing.

I was thinking about how I could create something meaningful. We are seeing the growth of Web 3.0 and the digital asset space, so from the first piece To My One & Only Twitter Friend to this and henceforth, I am thinking-

How can I create meaningful content that captures the experiences of the people in this space? By doing so, can I create an experience for the persons involved? A private, intimate, heartfelt moment. The kind in which time slows down, you slow down and sip tea as you hear the light rain on your window.

The humans, we, haven’t changed. We are still pretty much the same on the whole, and so, we still crave authentic interactions and memorable experiences. A new culture will grow in this space as it grows. I’m excited.

Specific to this piece of content, I envision the receiver keeping the NFT in their wallet for as long as the blockchain lives. It’s akin to your first post on Instagram, except that someone sweet bought it and airdropped it to you. Another version that I envision is for holders to keep passing it on. Like you know, those cheezy emails we used to receive that read “Pass it on to 5 of your best friends!” and they should also pass it on to another 5 of their best friends. old times

This is minted on Polygon but let’s still hope gas comes down sooner than later.

What shall I create next? Let me know.


下江南

麒麟阿姨的鼻子贴在明月手心里的耳坠子。

“苏州府。”

苏州府是顺太妃的故乡。

“坐稳。”

明月收好耳坠子,抓紧保皮也抓紧麒麟阿姨修长的脖子。麒麟阿姨轻轻地一跃,便从木屋外奔向亭子、池塘、小石路,直到神林外。一出神林就来了群商团,可麒麟阿姨却往直奔。

“麒麟阿姨,小心!我们快——啊!”

他们穿过商团继续往前奔。商团也毫不知情地继续行路。明月松了口气,保皮却傻笑啦!

四肢敏捷的麒麟阿姨就随着山脉直奔,迎面而来的风直打明月的面颊。明月侧着头尽收一切。她看到雄峻的山脉、也看到波涛滚滚的泥江水。她看到一望无际的田地和成群的乡镇土房。犹如首次被逼出笼子的小鸟,她既兴奋又害怕。一切都好特别、好新鲜。一瞬间,她忘了她的伤痛。其实,明月本性活泼可爱。

不久,他们来到腐烂发黑的树丛。出了树丛后,竟是一块块干枯的田地。田地里有几个发愣的农夫爷爷。他们头发凌乱、衣冠不整地傻坐在土地上。

麒麟阿姨自言自语地说:“不祥之… ”

“麒麟阿姨?”

可麒麟阿姨没回应明月。至于保皮,眼前的迹象好熟悉,可它说不出一个所以然。

明月转身再看农夫爷爷们一眼。接着,她看着双手内侧发红发黄的血管。而当她抬头看四周一眼时,他们已经悄悄地离开。

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夜晚,麒麟阿姨带着明月和保皮到临近森林里的古神树休息。一到古神树,麒麟阿姨总是恭敬地屈身弯腰。古神树就在森林的中心处。而原来,每一片森林是从一颗种子诞生。经过几千年的光阴与雨水,那颗小种子长成一棵滋润森林乃至大地万物的古神树。有的古神树高耸入云、有的盘曲多姿,而有的雄伟壮观。可无论长成什么姿态,它们各个生机勃勃,充满能量。

森林有一戒。古神树矗立的地方不可杀生。触犯戒条的皆不可消化和吸收所吃饮的任何东西。即使是清水,身体也会完全排拒。或许,就是因为这土壤从未有过流血的痕迹,明月和保皮总能睡得踏实安详。

有一晚,明月入眠之时,她察觉到脸颊上有一丝丝的微光。她慢慢地睁开双眼。犹如挂满星星的天空,周围飘浮着粉红的闪烁。她试着触摸可根本够不着。突然,她听到也感受到古神树的心跳。扑通扑通地、扑通扑通地,永不停息。她紧紧地抱紧保皮和麒麟阿姨。她会一生牢记这一幕。

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一路往南走,明月感受到南方比北方潮湿许多。山脉也更为秀骏、河流也更为弯曲。一路上,每个地方的房子也有它独特之处。不到十天的路程,他们来到了南京。南京弥漫一股繁华的气象。

隔天,麒麟阿姨化成一位高贵典雅的妇女。她看着在运河边上停泊的小船和在小船上休息的老船夫,说:“我们趁船进苏州府吧。”

在运河上没多久,老船夫便对着明月说:“你这小山羊可爱!”

保皮生气地说:“你这老头子!”

明月瞪着保皮说:“保皮!”

幸亏老船夫耳朵不灵。“啊?”

明月回应:“嗯!谢谢!”

老船夫一听,便眯着双眼傻笑、嘴里还露出掉得所剩不几的牙齿。

运河两岸的景色开始浮现。现是一片又一片的田地。田地里有骑着水牛的孩童,也有三五成群的孩子在放风筝和攀老树。一对一对的妇女在不远的小桥流水上有说有笑的。她们偶尔抬头看看孩子们,偶尔看看在运河经过的小船只。运河边上的土路来了群骑着驴子和拉着一车子果子的庄稼汉。有一位挑着两袋果子的,一步一步地跟在后头。接着,运河上开始出现其他船只。岸上的田块也开始被一间间的房屋所取代。

前头开始传来敲锣打鼓。老船夫欢快地说:“接新娘咯!接新娘咯!”

明月和保皮伸出脖子寻找轿子,可它正好被岸上的树枝给遮挡住。

运河两岸来了小山丘和更多的田块与小桥流水。运河上也开始出现许多载满物品的船只。好几艘船只停泊的一处搭了戏台。戏台下围着等候的人群。

老船夫喊道: “快到苏州府嘞!”

前头来了一座大桥。大桥上挤满买卖与来往的人群。穿过大桥后是一排排的店铺、茶馆和小食店。接着,他们的船只穿过城门。无论在岸上两边还是在运河上都是热闹、热闹、热闹。人挤人的、船挤船的,有卖粮食、茶叶、陶器、丝绸和小玩意的。还有很多明月从未看过的东西。穿过了市场,他们来到一座庞大的寺庙。接着,就是传出一阵阵朗诵声的学堂街。

终于,老船夫看到能停泊的位置。一上岸,明月便注意到一位气宇不凡的女子。她在来往的人群中,一动也不动地站着看书。突然,这位女子放下看得入神的书,然后向明月走去。她说:“这位小姑娘一直往我这方向看,我是王珍珍。”

明月一时来不及反应。

“你是?”

“我叫明月。”

“明月?好名字。看你一身打扮,应该不是这里的人吧?我也不是。”

“哦,你为何来这里呢?”

“我来出版诗集。”

“哦?”

“我来这里找出版先生和印刷师傅。我们南方女子有许多都出版自己写的诗歌。你也可考虑写几首。到时候,我可以帮你找先生看看。对了,你身上是一只四不像吗?我跟阿爹到果阿时,看到许多长得类似的四不像。”

保皮这回真气着了。它说:“我不是四不像!我也不是从果阿来!”

“你还会说人话!好玩!你若不是四不像,那你是什么?”

“我!这!”

麒麟阿姨说:“珍珍,今天遇到你真好。我们得先走一步。我得带我这侄女去拜访一位先生。晚到恐怕不好。”

“那我不耽误你们的时间了。我也得赶紧办事。办好事,阿爹和我就要远行。”

明月问:“远行?”

“嗯,我们家是卖丝布。我们家的丝布可是遍布五湖四海。这世界很小,我相信我们会后会有期。”

珍珍话一落下,便转身离开。

明月一生在紫禁城长大,也见过许多貌美如花、冰雪聪明的嫔妃和公主。可她从未见过如王珍珍这般自信与直言的女子。珍珍走后,明月对着保皮问:“果阿在哪儿?在大明里吗?”

保皮不开心地回应:“我哪知道,从没听说过这样的地方。”

麒麟阿姨说:“走吧,我们去找你外爷去。”

麒麟阿姨带着明月和保皮到挂着 “林府” 牌匾的园林门前。

明月深深地吸了一口,然后轻轻地敲了门。一位五官清秀的书生打开双门。他看到门外的客人便彬彬有礼地说:“请进。”

园林比明月想象得清华。进了园林的茶间后,麒麟阿姨和书生同时间化回原形。原来书生是一只小麒麟。

麒麟阿姨对着明月和保皮说:“这是七仙子。 它是林府的护神。“

七仙子问:”这位姑娘即是林府的主人又是林府的客人。不知麒麟大君和两位亲临林老先生的林府有何急事?“

明月把耳坠子取出来。七仙子看了一眼就明白。

“去年立春之际,林老先生前去琉球种养园林,还未归来。“

“琉球”这两个字让明月身体里的明珠颤抖了一下。

保皮问:“琉球在哪儿?”

“琉球就是琉球王国。乘大船渡东海能到此地。”

而保皮一听到“东海”这两个字,好似记起了什么。

麒麟阿姨想了会儿便对明月说:“不如去琉球与林老先生会和吧?”

保皮直觉性地说:“渡东海乃九死一生。”

书生也说:“林老先生也是得到琉球王族的保护才能安渡东海到琉球。”

麒麟阿姨从容不迫、中肯地对明月说:“我能保你平安东渡。”

保皮又直觉性地问:“麒麟阿姨,您虽然是神兽,可不是东海的神兽,更不是海神的后裔呀。您怎么保明月平安东渡呢?”

麒麟阿姨说:“我们去找东海老龟。它会助你一臂之力。“

赫然,麒麟阿姨和七仙子说:“有不祥之气。“

七仙子说:“从南门离开。我来挡路。”

咔嚓!茶间的门被砸开,一群面目可憎的无面兽出现。站在它们身后的狞儿双手抓着小刀子对着明月微笑。

一只无面兽向明月扑了过去。幸好,麒麟阿姨及时把明月推开。可随后的无面兽向麒麟阿姨冲去,它用前爪狠狠地划伤麒麟阿姨。同时间,另一只无面兽咬住麒麟阿姨的脖子。

七仙子化风为力,把后门推开。

狞儿喊道: “挡住后门!“

可无面兽来不及反应,七仙子再次化风为力,把麒麟阿姨、明月和保皮推出后门,乃至五十里之外。几只无面兽向他们追去,可想必是追不上。

狞儿火冒三丈。她甩出飞刀,把来不急施隐形术的七仙子逮住。七仙子趴在地上,使命地挣扎。

狞儿缓缓地走进茶间,视线从未离开过七仙子。

她对无面兽发令:“把这只鹿给宰了。”

/第五回

Remember that Marshmallow Test?

The Marshmallow Test is a simple one. Have something desirable right below your nose, say a marshmallow placed before you for 20minutes, tempting you to eat it. You can just pop it into your mouth. No one is stopping you. But then you forgo getting another marshmallow 20 minutes later.

Would you choose to eat one marshmallow now or wait to eat two marshmallows?

The wait is usually painful, especially if you love marshmallows. But you get 2 instead of 1.

Let’s raise the stakes of this play.

You have a bank account with some savings, and you are itching to spend it. You can use it now and get that pair of sneakers or 3-day travel you are dying to have OR be disciplined and use only what you have already allocated to yourself for daily expenses.

The mantra you tell yourself, “Those savings shall be spent for XXXX in XXXX time in the future, and then you can get A & B instead of just A. “

BORING. The latter option is BORING. It is PAINFUL too, when you are putting in the reps, day by day, and you just want to break that monotony and routine. In pursuing your goals, which you were so eager about when freshly started, you now feel restless and uncertain. You even find distractions to distract yourself from your goals.

That’s the marshmallow test, and that’s the mind game you play.

Why am I bringing this up now? Because I feel the pain of putting in the reps to fulfill those goals and just have the urge to be reckless. Aha!

But the pain is real. The pain from being reckless was not a good experience. And so, after gaining perspective, we learned. As we eye that extra marshmallow waiting for us at the finishing line, we take breaks, adjust our mental states and choose to trod on.

First Panic Attack of 2021

I had an unexpected panic attack this morning which lasted about 4 hours. Perhaps it was due to my kitten’s unexpected vomit early this morning (she probably overate or ate too fast!), an unexpected reliving of a past experience, work matters, or a combination of all or any of those.

I can’t even remember when my last panic attack was. Probably more than a year ago.

Regardless, I am thankful for how far I have come and something awesome happened at work today, we are getting leads from our marketing! Yippee!

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If you have been following this blog, you would have noticed tweaks and changes. “Metasparks” seems just about right. We are getting closer. Culture, history, new stuff, ideas, stories, here and there. Let’s see where this takes us!

Stick around ~

Camel Sense

gm world!

I started my day by checking VeeFriends Discord and decided to participate in the Black Friday giveaway. I was to choose a favorite VeeFriend. I chose the Caring Camel *cute camel*!

This is my tweet:

Crazily, it took me 40minutes to write?! I unexpectedly found myself feeling vulnerable and anxious. I believe it was due to sharing an authentic part of me as well as, reliving a memory, an experience which I thought doesn’t bother me any longer.

I still feel a little uncomfortable now, physically, while typing this. Wow. I do think it is cathartic and I look forward to reclaiming more of my experiences and self.

Since we are on camels, I used to have my online username as “camel_sense”. I think I even had a deleted blog entitled that. It was in Xinjiang that I had the chance to go on a camel ride. It was amazing. Camels, animals, understand a lot more than we think. They can sense and interact with the emotional landscape.

Kids get teased a lot and honestly, my experience was not the worst, compared to say what we hear and see of other kids getting teased and bullied. I did take things very hard and personally. It was much later in life I learned about setting boundaries and not taking everyone’s opinions and thoughts to heart.

Got to rush off for my work now. Have a good day everyday 🙂